Истинно се кае този, който изповядва греховете си, скърби за тях и полага твърдото намерение, в надежда на Божията помощ, да не се връща към предишните си дела, но всячески да страни от тях. Такъв, даже и да е съвсем недостоен, се удостоява както с Божието милосърдие, тъй и с Божественото Причастие. Пример за такова удостояване при несъвършено достойнство е преподобна Мария Египетска. За нея се пише, че в греховния си живот била толкова недостойна за Божията милост, че и храмът Божий не искал да я пусне в себе си, което тя самата по-късно открила на преподобния Зосима с думите: "Когато моят грешен крак се докосна до църковния праг, църквата всички приемаше, а мене, окаяната, не приемаше, но някаква Божия сила ми пречеше да вляза, подобно на множество воини, поставени да вардят портите". И когато тази грешница при цялото си недостойнство положила в сърцето си, пред иконата на пречистата Дева Богородица, начало на едно истинско покаяние, намерение и обет никога вече да не се връща към греха, тозчас църквата не само я приела в себе си, но и вечерта на същия ден тя се удостоила да приеме Божествените тайни на Господните Тяло и Кръв в Предтечевата църква край река Йордан, за което подробно се говори в житието на преподобната. Ето, виждаме - не е възмездила с дела на покаяние греховете си, не се е докоснала още до пустинните скърби и постническите подвизи, едва ден е минал откак е оставила скверното житие, а вече не се отнема от нея, истинно каещата се, Господнята чаша. Има грешници, които, макар и не веднага, се вдигат от греховния сън и полагат начало на истинно покаяние с Божията помощ; преломяват те веднъж завинаги своя зъл греховен навик, захвърлят го и плюят върху него, и от тоя миг вече никога не се връщат назад, но цели се предават на това да се очистят с покаяние от всяка сквернота на плътта и духа и дори до края си да живеят в чистотата, придобита чрез покаянието. Такива, питам, на кое място сред светците са достойни да застанат? 
Нека всеки съди, както иска, аз пък не се срамувам да поставя такъв в лика на девствениците, и да го запиша наедно с девствените - сам свети пророк Йеремия подкрепя и наставя ръката ми, понеже в неговата книга чета, че Бог си избра Израиля, както мъж невеста за брачно съжителство; а Израил, като поживял немного време в единомислие с Бога, се развратил и прелюбодействувал, кланяйки се на езическите божества. И Бог увещава Израиля, а с него и всеки сегашен грешник, с такива слова: "но ти имаше чело на блудница и не поиска да се усрамиш. Поне сега викни към Мене: Отче мой и Наставниче на моето девство!" (Иерем. 3:3 според Вулгата). Да вникнем в това: едно и също грешно лице е наречено блудница и девица: чело, казва, имаше на блудница - ето я блудницата, и после: въззови ме, Отче и Наставниче на моето девство - ето я девицата...
Дълго се чудех и недоумявах, защо грешницата бе оставена не само безбоязнено, но дори смело да стои на мястото на апостолите и девствениците и да докосва Христовите нозе, докле научих причината от светия Златоуст, който говори за тая жена следното: първом жената бе блудница, а сега - девица, сестра Христова, невеста на Словото. Стой сега, о жено, която истински се каеш, стой смело на мястото на апостолите и девствениците! Защото подир твоето дълговременно нечисто житие, чрез внезапна промяна и истинско покаяние ти си станала девица, сестра Христова, невеста на Словото. И вие, останалите грешници, ако и не тъй бързо, но истински и безвъзвратно, обърнете се към покаяние - ще бъдете, казвам ви, в лика на девствените и със самите свети апостоли. И какво още да кажа? Какво ли по-дивно, по-достойно за почит, по-преславно да кажа от това, че чрез истинско покаяние дори и грешниците се вреждат в лика на светиите! А вие, правоверни слушатели, които внимателно слушате думите ми, разберете, че всичко това ви казвам за духовно утешение, та да не се отчайвате за спасението си, намирайки се в много грехове, но да се вдигнете скоро, като от сън, от вашите грехове, и, като се покаете истински, да се удостоите да бъдете заедно с всички светии, което дано и всинца се сподобим да получим. Амин.Св. Димитрий Ростовски
The Holy Martyrs Agathopodes the Deacon and Theodulus the Reader lived in Thessalonica during the reign of the emperor Diocletian (284-305) and Maximian (284-305) and were among the church clergy. The holy Deacon Agathopodes was very old, and Saint Theodulus very young. Both distinguished themselves by righteous life and piety. Once, St Theodulus had a vision in his sleep, in which an unknown person in radiant garb placed some object in his hand. When he awoke, he saw in his hand a beautiful ring with the image of the Cross and he realized that this was a sign of his future martyrdom. By the power of the Cross depicted on the ring, the saint healed many of the sick and converted pagans to faith in Christ the Savior. When the emperor Diocletian issued an edict of a persecution against Christians (303), many attempted to hide themselves from pursuit, but Sts Agathopodes and Theodulus fearlessly continued to proclaim the Gospel. Governor Faustinus of Thessalonica heard of this, and gave orders to bring them to him for trial. Seeing the youth and excellence of St Theodulus, Faustinus attempted flattery to persuade him to renounce Christianity and to offer sacrifice. St Theodulus replied that he had long ago renounced error and that he pitied Faustinus, who by embracing paganism had condemned himself to eternal death. The governor offered the martyr a choice: the fortunes of life, or immediate death. The saint said that he would certainly choose life, but life eternal, and that he did not fear death. When Faustinus saw that he would not persuade Theodulus, he began to talk with St Agathopodes. The governor attempted to deceive him and said that St Theodulus had already agreed to offer sacrifice to the gods. But Agathopodes did not believe this. He was convinced that St Theodulus was prepared to offer his life for the Lord Jesus Christ. Not having any success, Faustinus commanded the martyrs to be taken to prison. The holy martyrs prayed fervently and boldly preached the Word of God to the imprisoned, so that many were converted to Christianity. Eutinios, the head of the prison, reported this to the governor. Faustinus again summoned them to trial and again he urged them to renounce Christ. Before the eyes of St Theodulus they brought forth some who had been Christians, but betrayed the Faith. "You have conquered the weak, but you will never conquer the strong warriors of Christ, even if you invent greater torments," exclaimed St Theodulus. The governor commanded the martyr to produce the Christian books. "Here, is my body given for torture," he answered, "do with it what you wish; torture me fiercely, but I shall not hand over the sacred writings to be mocked by the impious!" Faustinus gave orders to bring St Theodulus to the place of execution, where an executioner readied a sword in order to cut off his head. The martyr bravely and with joy cried out, "Glory to You, O God, the Father of my Lord Jesus Christ, Who deigned to suffer for us. Here, by His grace, I am coming to You, and with joy I die for You!" Then Faustinus halted the execution and again locked up the martyrs in prison. There the holy martyrs prayed fervently and both had the same dream. They were sailing in a ship, which was in danger of being wrecked in a storm. The waves cast them up on shore, arrayed in radiant white clothing. The saints told each other about the vision, and they gave thanks to God for their impending martyrdom. In the morning, when the martyrs were again brought to Faustinus, they declared to him: "We are Christians and we are prepared to undergo any suffering for Christ." Faustinus gave orders to cast them into the sea. The waves carried St Agathopodes to the rocks, and he loudly exclaimed, "This shall be for us a second Baptism, which will wash away our sins, and we shall come to Christ in purity." St Theodulus was also cast into the sea (+ 303). The bodies of the saints were washed up on shore. They were dressed in radiant garb, but the ropes and stones used to weight them down were gone. Christians took their holy bodies and gave them reverent burial.
Saint Mark was born in Athens. He related his life to Abba Serapion who, by the will of God, visited him before his death. He had studied philosophy in his youth. After the death of his parents, St Mark withdrew into Egypt and settled into a cave of Mount Trache (in Ethiopia). He spent ninety-five years in seclusion and during this time not only did he not see a human face, but not even a beast or bird. The first thirty years were the most difficult for St Mark. Barefoot and bedraggled, he suffered from the cold in winter, and from the heat in summer. The desert plants served him for food, and sometimes he had to eat the dust and drink bitter sea water. Unclean spirits chased after St Mark, promising to drown him in the sea, or to drag him down from the mountain, shouting, "Depart from our land! From the beginning of the world no one has come here. Why have you dared to come?"
After thirty years of tribulation, divine grace came upon the ascetic. Angels brought him food, and long hair grew on his body, protecting him from the cold and heat. He told Abba Serapion, "I saw the likeness of the divine Paradise, and in it the prophets of God Elias and Enoch. The Lord sent me everything that I sought." During his conversation with Abba Serapion, St Mark inquired how things stood in the world. He asked about the Church of Christ, and whether persecutions against Christians still continued. Hearing that idol worship had ceased long ago, the saint rejoiced and asked, "Are there now in the world saints working miracles, as the Lord spoke of in His Gospel, 'If ye have faith even as a grain of mustard seed, ye will say to this mountain, move from that place, and it will move, and nothing shall be impossible for you' (Mt.17:20)?" As the saint spoke these words, the mountain moved from its place 5,000 cubits (approximately 2.5 kilometers) and went toward the sea. When St Mark saw that the mountain had moved, he said, "I did not order you to move from your place, but was conversing with a brother. Go back to your place!" After this, the mountain actually returned to its place. Abba Serapion fell down in fright. St Mark took him by the hand and asked, "Have you never seen such miracles in your lifetime?" "No, Father," Abba Serapion replied. Then St Mark wept bitterly and said, "Alas, today there are Christians in name only, but not in deeds." After this, St Mark invited Abba Serapion to a meal and an angel brought them food. Abba Serapion said that never had he eaten such tasty food nor drunk such sweet water. "Brother Serapion," answered St Mark, "did you see what beneficence God sends His servants? In all my days here God sent me only one loaf of bread and one fish. Now for your sake He has doubled the meal and sent us two loaves and two fishes. The Lord God has nourished me with such meals ever since my first sufferings from evil."
Before his death, St Mark prayed for the salvation of Christians, for the earth and everything in the world living upon it in the love of Christ. He gave final instructions to Abba Serapion to bury him in the cave and to cover the entrance. Abba Serapion was a witness of how the soul of the one hundred- thirty-year-old Elder Mark, was taken to Heaven by angels. After the burial of the saint, two angels in the form of hermits guided Abba Serapion into the inner desert to the great Elder John. Abba Serapion told the monks of this monastery about the life and death of St Mark.
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